From hate to love, or the story how I dreamed of dropping out.

This story began when I was applying for admission to the institute. I had to correct my documents several times. Even then I decided that this was a sign and I should not enroll in Baikal School of BRICS at all. However, I did.

Despite the fact that we started studying in October, for me full-scale studies began only in November. I was sick with covid, so I spent the first month on distance learning. To be honest, it really affected the relationship with classmates and teachers. Even now, being in the 3rd year of study, I still haven't joined the team.

In the first year of study, we had an English teacher - Svetlana Vladimirovna Latysheva. It seemed to me that she disliked me immediately. It was very difficult to show her my presentations. She took every little thing on the slide very seriously. To be honest, I had nervous breakdowns due to the constant redoing of my works. It was very hard for me. I really hated every minute of the lectures. I dreamed of dropping out.

When I tearfully asked my parents to allow me to drop out of university or transfer to another one, my father told me the phrase: "You are being tested for strength, because they see potential in you." After these words, I looked differently at the professor's teaching methods.

After a while, a conference was held at the institute and I participated in it. When I finished answering the questions of the evaluation committee of the conference and left the audience, Svetlana Vladimirovna followed me. She said she was completely confident in me and that I performed well.

She praised me! That's when I realized I needed her approval. Her teaching methods did not affect me very well emotionally, but it helped me overcome my fear. I didn't drop out and I am very grateful to her. From hate to love is one step.